Mad Girl's Love Song

I embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected enough to step aside and weep like a widow to feel inspired, to fathom the power, to witness the beauty, to bathe in the fountain, to swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human. With my feet upon the ground I lose myself between the sounds and open wide to suck it in, I feel it move across my skin. I'm reaching up and reaching out, I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me. And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been. We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been. Spiral out. Keep going, going... --Tool

And here it is....my much needed goodbye letter to my longest and most bittersweet relationship. Dear Cigarettes, Let me start by saying how much I will always love you.  You have been by my side since I was a young teenager in a disfunctional environment.  All through high school, I remember the nights at the parties, my friends, the alcohol, and of course, YOU.  Always there when I got stressed, drank too much, wanted to look cool with you by my side...you get the point.  I kept you tucked away in my purse or coat pocket, yet you always came through without a hesitation. Soothing me...easing my worries of uncoolness amongst my friends...bonding me somehow to the ones I loved.  My memories of you are fond in those years.  But as I got older, you kinda clung to me too much. I couldn't breathe as good with you around, and I always felt tired from your constant presence.  But you were still cool in my eyes, so I let you stay around.  We we...

I woke the same as any other day Except a voice was in my head It said seize the day, pull the trigger Drop the blade, and watch the rolling heads The day I tried to live I stole a thousand beggar's change And gave it to the rich The day I tried to win I dangled from the power lines And let the martyrs stretch Singing One more time around might do it One more time around might make it One more time around might do it One more time around The day I tried to live Words you say never seem To live up to the ones inside your head The lives we make never seem To ever get us anywhere but dead The day I tried to live I wallowed in the blood and mud with All the other pigs I woke the same as any other day you know I should have stayed in bed The day I tried to win I wallowed in the blood and mud with All the other pigs And I learned that I was a liar Just like you